Unworthy

 On Sunday I was preparing to go out to Mass where I was due to read. As I was getting ready I was filled with a feeling of unworthiness. What right had I to read at Holy Mass? I am no Saint. If anything, I am a great sinner. But God is a great Saviour. Thinking of conversations I have had in the past, yes, I am unworthy, no one is worthy. We say it at Mass during the Eucharistic prayer, "Lord, I am not worthy that you should enter under my roof....." God loves us because we are his children, made in His image and likeness. God did not come to earth in the human form of Jesus for the people who were well, "I have come to call not the righteous but sinners to repentance" (Lk 5:32). During Mass last Sunday that part of the Eucharistic prayer struck me more than usual. Communion time came and they were short of Ministers. As a commissioned Minister I struggled to get up and help because I was still carrying this feeling of unworthiness. But then I remembered that as unworthy as I am, God loves me. I do not distribute Holy Communion because I am worthy but I do it in service of God because I am unworthy. 

When we think of being worthy we are thinking in human terms. However, God does not measure our worthiness in human terms. In God's eyes we are worthy no matter our faults and failures. So the next time you feel low and unworthy remember God loves you. And while you might feel unworthy, in God's eyes you are worth every bit of love that He has for you. And that is a lot of love because the love God has for each of us is unmeasurable.